So, ashley wrote in her journal so now im like jeez i havent actually written in a long time and alot has changed... at least i think

First off... BASKETBALL YAY! nothing makes me happier right now... and more stressed! our record is a little better now ... 6-12... we won 3 and lost 1 since last time i wrote so thats a good average! i think we might do alittle late in the season come around! which would make me sooo happy... because the guys are so great and deserve every win they can get! at the pv game leyon got hurt and i realized at that game just how much i care about the guys ... i almost cried i was so scared bc he wasnt getting up but he was fine! THE SEASON IS ALMOST OVER :( only like 6 games left

last night we all went out after the game ... and when i say we all i mean we all there was 11 of us ! it was fun uncomfortable at times but fun

HIGHLIGHT OF THE NIGHT... ME STEALING MEL'S $20 AND SAVING US FROM DOING THE DISHES! LOL

the whole doug thing has been killing me like im pretty sure i lost this great friendship thing i had going with him and everyone tells me that he does like me still but hello from the talk he gave me i dont think i have to worry abt whether or not he likes me ... although he seems to get a tad jealous when im around Rob... but that would be his problem im tried of caring but i will still continue to care lol i always do lol

i feel so bad for ashley her lunch sucks!

i would write more but i have no time

*ashley ill find you a new table~!!*

New Survey:
Your Name: Charissa
What it means: Grace
Your age: 16
Your birthday: 8/18
Your birthplace: Pocono Medical Center
Your height: 5'8
Hair color: Brown
Who's in your family?: Mom, aunt and uncle
Do you like your looks?: I hate them
What's your best talent?: managing my basketball boys lol
Are you healthy?: um I could be healthier
What do you want to be when you grow up?: teacher or something to do with the government
Are you a good person?: I think/hope so

PART B: THE CONSPIRATORS
Who is/are your BEST friend(s)?: Ashley
Who are your enemies?: i dont wanna name them it would be mean
Are you a good friend?: i would hope
Who do you go to for advice?: everyone
Who knows you the best?: Ashley
Who knows all your dark secrets?: no one
Do you have dark secrets?: yep
Have you ever been betrayed by a friend?: yes
How important is friendship to you?: very

PART C: THE SIGNIFICANT OTHER -
Do you have a crush? yes
Do you have a boy/girlfriend? nope
How long have you been with them? 0 days and 0 hours
What do you like most about them?
Have you ever been in love? Yes.
Do you like having a boy/girlfriend? yeah
Have you ever had a crush on someone that liked you as a friend? Yes.
Do you think a "friend" of yours is in love with you? sadly no
What's the best thing about not being in a relationship? when u figure out, tell me...
Do you ever want to get married? yup

PART D: CHERISHED PASTIMES..
Favorite song: perfect girl
Favorite band/group: Aztec Trip, linkin park
Favorite thing to do: Hang out with friends/ go to basketball games
Favorite people to be with: The usual group of friends
Favorite place to hang out: anywhere
Favorite day of the week: Friday/saturday

PART E: IN THE PAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU..
Cried:yes
Laughed: yup
Made someone laugh? yup
Heard a secret? probably
Helped someone? I tried
Bought something? yes
Cut your hair? nope
Been kissed? nope
Felt stupid? yup
Sang? to myself
Drove? yes
Said I love you? yes
Meant it? yes
Seen someone you haven't seen in a while?: no
Yelled at someone? yup
Written a real letter? nope
Taken a test? Nope.
Met someone new? nope
Been called a name? yes
Written in a journal? i am write now
Watched your favorite movie? nope
Given someone a present? nope
Hit someone? Nope.
Missed someone? yeah
Hugged someone? yes
Fought with your parents? yup

PART F: HAVE YOU EVER..
Loved someone so much it made you cry? yup
Been on stage? yup
Cried for hours straight? nope

PART G: LASTS!
When was the last time you showered? this morning
When was the last time you cried? like 2 hours ago
How long can you hold your breath?: 33 seconds
Boxers or Briefs for guys?: boxers
Disney World / Disney Land?: Disney World
Can you swim?: Yup
Do you like to swim?: yup
Do you have a job?: nope
Do you prefer pools or oceans? pool
Do you sing in the shower?: yes
The best way to die?: old
What age do you want to live to?: OLD!...or...Forever.
How do you want to die?: old
Have you ever called a 900 number?: nope
When is the last time you dressed up?: Saturday
Would you rather be short or tall?: tall
Do you enjoy reading?: no
Which Winnie the Pooh character is your fave? pooh
What is your sign? leo
What movie do you really want to see?: i dk
What are your personality traits?: funny sweet caring understanding
What is your biggest wish?: to be loved by one great man for the rest of my life
Would you ever have cosmetic surgery?: nope
Do you like to dance?: I can't, but I guess
Better to cry or laugh? LAUGH!
Do you bite your nails?: nope
Did you ever cry over someone of the opposite sex?: yup
Do you have a pager?: no
What did you do last night?: went out with ashley
Last person you talked to on AIM? Justin

[Jewelry worn daily]: earrings, necklace, rings, watch
[Shoes]: nike's
[Favorite top]: light orange one from aero
[Favorite bottoms]: old navy
[Cologne/Perfume]: Love Spell from Victoria Secret
[CD in stereo right now]: mixed
[Piercings]: ears
[Hair]: Brown
[What you are wearing now]: my purple work outfit i got for christmas
[In my mouth]: gum
[After this]: Nothing
[Talking to]: Ashley
[The last thing you ate?]: corn muffin
[Some of your favorite movies]: Bubble Boy, You Drive Me Crazy, Finding Nemo
[Something that you are deathly afraid of]: Rejection
[Do you believe in love at first sight]: depends
[Do believe in forgiveness]: no
[If you could have any animal for a pet...]: a horse
[What are 3 cities you wouldnt mind relocating to?]: Salem, Farmington, Knoxville
[What are some of your favorite pig out foods?]: chips ice cream
[What's something you wish you could understand better?]: Guys

[In the last 24 hours, have you]
01. Cried: yes
02. Bought something: Nope
03. Gotten sick: Nope
04. Sang: yes
05. Eaten: Yes
07. Felt stupid: so stupid
08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: no
09. Met someone new: no
10. Moved on: no
11. Talked to an ex: nope
12. Missed an ex: nope
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: yup
14. Had a serious talk: yes
15. Missed someone: Yes
16. Hugged someone: yes
17. Fought with your parent: when dont we fight
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: yup

[Who - Friends]
01. Have you known the longest: Ash
02. Do you argue with the most: Ash
03. Do you always get along with: Jeff
04. Is the trustworthiest: Diana
05. Makes you laugh the most: Ashley
06. Has been there through all the hard times: Ashley and Diana
07. Has the coolest parents: Ashley
08. Has the coolest siblings: not ashley
09. Is the most blunt: Diana and Douglas
10. Is the smartest: Douglas

[Personal]
01. Who is your role model: Katie Holmes
02. What are some of your pet peeves: when i can hear you chewing ur food
03. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: yup
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: yup
05. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: sporty and funny
06. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): yup
07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: all the time
08. Rather be dumper or dumped: dumper
09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": i would love a relationship but a "hook up" would be easier to get right now
10. Want someone you don't have right now: yup
11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: Yes
12. Do you want to get married: Yes
14. Do you believe in psychics: sometimes
15. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: i could ... only one i can see myself with forever tho
16. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: calfs
17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: caring
18. Are you happy with you: not really
19. Are you happy with your life: not really
20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: my problem with douglas

Have you...
1. Fallen for your best friend?: my best guy friend
3. Been rejected?:yes
4. Been in love?: Yes
5. Used someone?: yes
6. Been used?: yes
8. Done something you regret?:yes last night

[Who was the last person..]
9. You touched?: i dk
12. You instant messaged?:Ashley
14. You had sex with?: no one
15. You yelled at?: my aunt
16. You laughed with?: ashley
17. Who broke your heart?: doug
18. Who told you they loved you?: my mom

Do you..
19. Color your hair?: Nope
20. Have tattoos?: nope
21. Have piercings?: ears
22. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend? sadly no
23. Own a webcam? no
24. Own a thong?: nope
25. Ever get off the damn computer?: yes... football and basketball
27. Habla espanol? no hablo espanol
28. Quack?: i owned a duck once

Have you / do you / are you...
29. Stolen anything?: when i was like 5
30. Smoke?: nope
32. Obsessive?: sometimes
33. Compulsive?: no
34. Obsessive compulsive?: i guess
35. Panic?: no
36. Anxiety? sometimes
37. Depressed?: sometimes
38. Suicidal?: nope
39. Obsessed with hate?: no
40. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore?: no
78. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?: off
79. Do you like your nose?: no
80. Do you think you can draw well?: no
81. At what age did you find out that Santa Clause wasn't real?: like 6?
82. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet?: like around 10
83. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like variety: Same shoes
84. Do you write poetry?: haha no
85. Snore?: when I have a stuffy nose, apparently i mumble in my sleep though
86. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?: side
87. Cats/Dogs?: cat
88. Do you lick stamps?: yes
89. Do you use an electric can opener?:yes
90. Have you ridden in a hotair balloon?: nope

20 attributes you want in a boyfriend

which is more important : overall looks or overall personality? i would say overall personality... it doesnt matter how good looking he is if you dont have a great personality you have nothing

how many boyfriends have you had? not many like 2 i dont really remember

What makes you attracted to a guy? personality, lips, eyes

Share a "mushy" moment witha guy if you have a good one: i dk the guys i go for usually dont do "mushy" moments

If you have any embarassing guy stories, do tell! I can't say I do...

whats the difference between being love and loving someone? i have no clue nothing i seem to put down sounds right

what are your feelings on boy toys? hmmm depends on who.

How long was your longest relationship? never had a long one lol.

What's your take on the majority of teenage daters? they think its going to be forever but most times its not and it ends in heart ache

What's your take on Valentine's Day? ( ok, this one u can be serious and funny lol): if you have a boyfriend its great if you dont it sucks ass

What's your take on people who make out like crazy in a movie thearte? movies are really expensive...why pay like $10 to make out? just do it somewhere its free

What's your take on people who make out on your locker? ( yes, I said "on"): hmmm i dont really know i dont have a lock for my locker anymore and i never see anyone making out on it so im good

Do you think saving yourself for marriage is important? Explain. i wouldnt say its important... but its a good choice to make i guess... i mean if i found a great guy and we were together for a while then maybe i would sleep with him but it shouldnt be like a different guy every night thats just gross

One thing a guy can do to turn you off to him : not be able to watch sports...i know how shallow but like sports is a huge part of my free time and if we couldnt do that together what could we do? also if he is checking out other girls infront of me

What's your idea of a nice date? a walk on the beach and dinner maybe a game?

What song would you make "your song" if u had a significant other. If you already ahve a song, what is it? "its your love" faith hill

What was your first kiss like? ( if you have had it. if not, its not all that glamorous anyway lol) i was young it was stupid it wasnt a big deal at all

What kind of things do you feel are nessecary to have in common to have a good relationship with a guy? sports...sports is a huge thing to me... maybe the same sense of humor... just being able to talk to him about anything

What does a boyfriend have to do to make you feel loved? want to be around me even when im really moody or bitchy... want to spend time with me instead of his friends...maybe just telling me (after a while of being together)

Name some good things about being single in your opinion. there is something good to being single?!! i dont see it

If you could choose a movie character as a boyfriend, why and what attributes did he have that you admire and want in a boyfriend? Jimmy from the bubble boy... because he went across the country to make sure that cloe wouldnt marry that guy and he was just so sweet when he said he would rather spend one moment holding her then the rest of his life knowing he couldnt

What do you think the media portrays about relationships? How do you feel about it? that they shouldnt be taken serious and people can cheat and lie and no one really cares i find it to be very sad

What should a girl do about verbal or emotional abuse from her boyfriend?break up with him and tell someone

If you have had any break ups with bfs, what did you do to cope with the break up? wow it was really sad i cried and i never cry and i was like wow charissa why the hell are u crying he was stupid and a jerk

Why do you think people change their personality and appearance to please people of the opposite sex? Do you agree with this? because they feel that no one will love them and they need to change to get love... i kinda agree with it

Is Johnny Depp hot? explain. NO he is old and ugly?

its been a little while ... more or less nothing much has been going on.. well thats a big fat lie but thats ok its been pretty filled with stuff to do

like first as always during these 3 months basketball... it really cant get better on a personal level...i mean on skill and winning level it could but on a personal level... like the guys are normally great... the jv guys are soooooo much fun it doesnt get better then an away game because then during the whole varsity game we all sit together and talk like little old women (aka dougs hair lol) doug is a special guy jeez if only he knew if only we could be together but yeah its me and i never get any guy so i really shouldnt bother.

we are now 3-11 pretty sucky huh? could be better but could be worse!

i really like him

hmmm well i guess HAPPY NEW YEARS? its a little late but better late then never!

break was a lot of fun... fun stuff happened... great things went on

like basketball just saying basketball makes me smile! so we have a tourn. at bangor! JV guys won ... its so cute to see them win bc they never did b4 that ... they smiled from ear to ear...

ashley came to her first game so now the jv team thinks she is there lucky charm... but i think its bc they came together... bc u dont win on luck u win on skill

then we have this very horny kid...aka...doug...yeah a very horny child...scary but funny as hell just makes me laugh my ass off

so we have a game tomorrow... and we bought the horny kid a gift to help him with his hornyness...its going to be the best...and hopefully we win against lehighton bc we really need the win!


gb he makes me sooooo happy i never thought i could be this happy around just one guy but he pretty much makes my life alot happier... i count down the days until i get to spend time with him again ... its just this great feeling i havent felt in a while ... it makes me so happy...

hehe im happy ... im not used to being happy