its been a long while since i wrote mostly because i have had school work and making a scrap book for my bestest friend EVER!!!! and on top of it all i have been trying to figure out what the hell makes charissa happy which is hard because i dont know what makes me happy... like sometimes its like YAY i cant be happier and 10 mins later im like damn it im not happy at all... but im thinking abt college now which scares the shit out of me i always thought i would get far far away from here and it seems like that wont be happening as long as my mother has a say in it... she wants me to go to ESU i dont wanna go there but i think the point of living on my own is going to be great in general no matter where i go but i still have till this time next year to talk her into letting me go and be my own person ... ashley and i plan on being together forever ... haha ... its soooo great we are going to share a dorm room and apartment and then go live in the same town and live next door to each other and have the good life... but the chances of that all happening are slim even tho i would LOVE for it to happen it would make my life sooo much more worth living but nothing ever works out for me its a normal thing for me i just have to learn to deal with it.

hmmm well unlike ashley... im soooo still into you! damn i just wish i would have the balls to tell u... haha thankfully i like more than 1 person so i dont have to worry abt only flirting with one person .... BoB haha

I WANT TO BE WITH YOU!

im listening to john he is going to be my husband one day! mark my words! we are going to be :-) he is the greatest!


well scrapbooking is calling my name .... CHARISSA CHARISSA .... so i think im going to answer bye for now

Hey its been a little while...So yeah im at ashley's now and having a good day till we tired to make things right with crystal .... We were trying to be nice u know? Make us friends again but she just doesn't understand that it was a mistake and we would never want him and her to break up....So yeah I guess that's done and over with...:-\

I just want to make this clear .... WE NEVER TRIED TO BREAK UP CRYSTAL AND AJ WE ONLY TRIED TO APOLOGY FOR WHAT SHE TOLD US HAPPENED! We are truly sorry and would love to have her as a friend again ... But what ever

ahhhh Isabel is coming! Hoping for power outs and shit like that :-d

Its college football day! Saturday for all u people who don't like football even though I don't know how u cant like football its just like the best sport in the world... Back of course the weekend I have off Tennessee has a by week pretty sucks right? But next week we play FLORIDA! And OMG that's like the best game of the year!

last night....Hmm last night....It was sorta different then i thought ... I thought I would have a nice night with Jeff just talking and walking and being charissa n Jeff but of course not when does anything go right for charissa? 2 of his friends were there so I got the great pleasure of listening to the 3 of them talk for an hour I mean come on I don't know these girls but at like 8:30 we went shopping and I got the cutest shirt from American eagle! And the HUGE PLUS was that it was only $3.47 what a great deal...And I showed him everything I wanted for Christmas! He has a good list to go from! haha I must say he is the sweetest guy I have around right now

so now im watching Penn state play but i HATE Penn state ahhh its horrible how much I hate them! I really hope they lose!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HmMmMmMmMmMmMmMmMmMmM...lots to talk about...well right now im on the phone with Diana and waiting for Jeff to get his ass back here so we can make plans for tomorrow night! I really think I need to get out and about, IM pretty bored just sitting around here I need to just get a night away from everything and just chill with Jeffrey....haha ahhhhh

so yeah im guessing this whole Jody thing is getting a little out there, I just wanna forget it all...see im saying forget it all not forgive it all because what she tried doing to Ashley and my friendship is unforgivable .... But im just goin to forget all abt it ... it will make everything better for me

I HATE English sooo much ... The teacher is so horrible...Her lips move weirdly and her voice is annoyin I wish I have coach Christian instead I hear he is much nicer. And plus he is the football coach and I love sports so that would be a plus... Talking about sports only like 4 months till basketball! Which is ALWAYS my favorite time of the year I love spending time with the guys and shit like that and its always fun with Ashley and BREADSTICKS! bc "winning a basketball game and breadsticks live cant get any better then this!" haha yeah memories memories!

yeah so hmmm jeez there is sooo much to write abt but I don't know I have a headache and im still waiting for Jeff and im not a good waiter! haha sooo ill go now

yeah i did have a GREAT post but the stupid thing didnt save it and now im not in the mood to write it all over again :-\ so maybe tomorrow?! haha

LiFe Is GrEaT

yes so today i learned some interesting new stuff ... like how jody was never really friends with me and doesnt really care abt me but she does care that ashley isnt talking to her.... but then ashley made me a pic. with quotes and inside jokes and shit which mean EVERYTHING BETTER! Thanks cha cha i love you! but after school i got to go to the DMV AGAIN for the 3rd time but this time i walked away with a permit... i got it the 2nd time but since my doctor is STUPID and didnt flip the paper out right i had to go out today and get the paper permit... but then tonight me and my uncle went driving omg its soooooooooooooooooooooooo scary yet VERY fun haha like knowing u have the power and all and he said the cutest thing he goes never thought i would see this day ur growing up sooo fast .... jeez for my uncle to be that sweet is something new!

BUT THEN I GOT THE JOHN MAYER CD! U KNOW MY FUTURE HUSBAND!!!!! ITS A GREAT CD IT HAS 10 TRACKS AND THEY ARE ALL GREAT GREAT GREAT!!!! DAMN THE THINGS I WOULD DO TO THAT MAN! HAHA are most likely the same things i would do to Gordo but he doesnt know that haha i love that he doesnt know but everyone says he knows and that we are soooo great together and blah blah blah but if he liked me soooo much i think he would make it a point to see and talk to me .... which he DOESNT do :-\ sad sad chariss....

ME DRIVING ME LISTENING TO JOHN MAYER ME HAVING A GREAT NIGHT! ITS REALLY GREAT! :-)

****Ashley i will pray for nana i hope EVERYTHING works out for her!! if u EVER need me day or night u just call and ill be right here for u! love ya***

oh yeah and i loke Gordo haha

So i have decided that i would get a new journal the old one (well its not that old) was around a bunch of people i dont like anymore one that i wish would just move away and get the hell out of my life my school my everything...but hey i have no control over that... so the reason i hate this person soooo much is because she tried to ruin my friendship with my bestest friend Ashley .... Jody is her name and she told me all this shit that ashley told her not to and me being the good friend i am i said i wouldnt tell ashley as long as she didnt stab me in the back in any way but she DID hmmm for some reason i KNEW that would happen so i had to tell ashley the truth bc if not ashley was going to be mad at me and not jody see jody lied she said that the way i found out abt Ashley and HIM was because i looked in her purse but the real way i found out was because Jody told me and of course ashley got mad bc jody said all this shit so finally ashley told me the story and i just told her the truth ... THE WHOLE TRUTH... and showed her some convos just so she would know i wasnt lying .... so now me and ashley are fine thank god i dont know what i would do if i ever lost her we have been friends for 7 years and to lose that would be like losing a huge part of me ... but yea we are good :-)

today in school was pretty good but ashley was sick so she asked home ... it was a learning exprience learning to talk to more then the normal people i usually talk to i talked to leyon today he isnt that scary i guess thats a good thing haha

well leyon and donny today in math were making fun of Diana and she got really upset and started crying i mean i feel for her and all BUT i think she kinda brought it on herself ... they arent the type of people u just try and talk to ... i mean she goes up to leyon and gives him a high five and shit and its like HELLO THATS LEYON ONE OF THE CAPTAINS OF THE FOOTBALL TEAM .... u just dont do that shit .... its all abt popularity at our school and i buy into it which people tell me is bad but i dk sometimes i think hey why should i have to lower myself but other times im like i never wanna be like them they are horrible people... but im pretty happy were i am on the social side of things....

i gotta 82% on my history test :-) im happy with that since he said that most people would be crying at there grades and the highest grade was only an 87% scary huh?

omg rocky just walked in the room and i swear he looks just like this kid Mike in my soc. class its scary lol or maybe im just scary

well im going